Can my life have some excitement ??

My life is really boring like a zombie. I got no entertainment, no partner, no desire, no aim, no money. Sometimes I really getting worry about myself, I like not interesting in what I can do, yet, I being too passionate to things that I can't do.

I really sick of this kind of life ! I really wish to join my friends. Join them for a trip, for a party session in club, hang around with them. But I just can't make it. I got no time, no money. The most important is, no one willing to leave me a room for all these.

What can I do for this life? I think what can I do is to wait, wait until I can have the power to afford for what I always desired for. Time is the key element in my life now, other than that, I am just a man alone with myself.

Two Great martial artists in a great movie !

Fight !!!

Damn it !! I am so addicted to martial arts ! Boxing, MMA, and Muay Thai is the martial arts that I really want to learn. To prepare myself for learning martial arts in the future, I changed my training method, to improve my muscle endurance.


Unfortunately, I still can't get the opportunity for that. An opportunity to learn martial arts in this moment. So, what I can do is............Watch fighting movie !


These is some of the martial arts that I watched recently. They are all great in fighting scenes, story line, and also moral value.

Never Back Down 2: The Beat Down

Warriors !

Undisputed 3: Redemption

Real Steel !!

The purpose of life?

I am losing my passion toward what am I doing now. Body building, study, writing, relationship, friendship. Damn it !! I just wondering what kind of life I am having right now. A life with no one beside, been alienated, been criticized all the time, been looking down by everyone all the time. Sometimes really feel like live like a dead meat.

I always knew that I having a bad human relationship skill, no matter how hard I tried, it still remain hatred by others. I think maybe I really did a lot of things that give others reasons to hate me. But I knew one day, maybe a year, a decade. I will be able to build a better human relationship skill, at least not being hatred by others. Frankly speaking, I think no one is really willing to treat me as a friends, based on what they knew about my bad attitude. I always know the importance of having some friends in life, but, doesn't mean that I have to give up myself and just to follow what others think I should.

In this few months, there's many things happened. Each of those incidents taught me a lesson, a lesson that I really treasure. I lost relationship, I lost friendship, I lost motivation. For me, I am totally a failure now. What is the purpose of my life? I don't even tell anyone about my dream, because I knew it will be a joke for everyone. Things never worthy to tell before it really happened. I got a lot of idea on how to become someone that I desperate for. But at this moment, I really doubt about myself, worry about my future.

A successful person can take failure, and they will failure. Yet, they will never quit. I lost faith to God, but I won't lost faith to myself. What happening in my life now is giving chances for me to learn more than others. Experience is non-purchasable, the more I failed now, the more experience I could earn, and that will help me more for what I am going to do in the future.