Man alone with himself...

This will be a great week, a week with Hari Merdeka, and also Hari Raya. I believe everyone is having their plans now, vacation, movie session, hang out with old friends and so on. But I am an exemption, my plan for this week, even this semester break is only work, and gym.

I am not the kind of person who like to live lifeless, like to being alone, but I keep can't escape from the category - man alone with himself. I try to empty my free time to spend it with my friends, but seems like just no one care. I knew I am just a jerk in previously, I knew everyone is hated me; I changed, I get off all my bad attitudes, at least I try so hard for it, but, nothing's different.

Life...life...life.... What is my life? If someone ask me, "what is your life about?". My answer will definitely be, "body building and work, and myself." Haiz !! Timing is really not on my side, I just can't have right timing to get involve with my friends. I have been alone for whole day, the moments I really talk to someone is when I spent my 2 hours in gym. Other than that? I just talking to myself, inside my own brain. 

I don't want to think any more, not worthy at all. Being alone is not bad, the terrible part is you feel empty although you are in a group. I am being alone now, but I am not empty, because I knew I got a lot have to achieve, and I got no time to feel empty.

I just being too steady ~ OH NO !!

It's 3:30am in the morning, I am still here and update my blog. I should be having exam later- in less than 12 hours later, yet, I still here- not for study, but fun.

I think I am being steady with the examination, or maybe just too steady, and it make me nervous- nervous because I am not nervous. Sounds confusing, but that's how I feel now. I realized I just put lesser effort on my study, most of the time just thinking about work and earn money when I graduated from college. I think I feel bored in college life, just feel that I can learn myself for what I getting at college now. Overestimated myself? Maybe.

Friendship !

I do remember I said before, "friends is not important, I just want to climb to the top, alone !". This is how I behave like in the past, a loneliness loser.

Succeed mean nothing, if no one you can share with. I finally realized this, and hopefully it won't be too late. I used to think that money is everything, with money, I can get whatever I want to, have anyone with me. This is so wrong, it's freaking wrong mindset, money is not only thing in life, and it's not important at all. I always think that I am so low ; because I got low income, low status, low quality, and also low height. I always complain all about that all the time, just because I am not rich enough, yet, I forgotten all the best part of my life.

I got a complete family, family that every members treat me like a prince. I got a gang of friends, a gang with all the pretty girls, friends that always remember my existence. I got a job, not really earn so much, but it can afford me to have a lifestyle that I've been asking for. I got a good brain, not really genius, but smart enough to solve problems. For all I got in my life, I am great and I should be happy, what can I ask more than that? Be rich like Bill Gates? Be smart as Einstein? Be famous like Michael Jackson? That's impossible ! 

I have to thanks to Belle Lee Boh Ying, she is the one who make me realized that friends is so important. She let me knew that the best part in our life is to have a gang of true friends that will never forget your existence. Without her, and also the FB group created by her, I think I might really being alone, for the rest of my life. Thank you, my best ji mui. I told you that you are the most important girl in my life, when we are still couple: but I just want to let you know that you are still the most important girl in my life, you are just my ji mui that can't be omitted in my life.

Reality is materialistic ?

"Not everyone is the same", "you will find someone who are not materialistic". All this sentence I had been listened again and again, but, I just can't believe what these sentence about. Or should I say, I believe no one is not materialistic, because this is reality world.

Girls always claim they just want to find a partner who can give them secure, comfort, able to take care of them. But what they actually want is, able to give money for them to spend. I ever heard someone told me this, "guys may able to treat the girl the best he could, protect her; but, nothing give more secure to a girl than money does." Many of you might disagree, but try to ask yourself, especially for guys. When you make your partner get angry, what is the best method to get her forgiveness? Hundred times of the word "Sorry", or, just the simply two alphabet called "LV"? The answer is so obvious right. I dare not to say every girl, or every female is this kind, but I dare to say more than 80%, especially those who looks pretty.

You might still looking for a girl who are not materialistic, who are truly understand you. You may give a try, but I bet the probability is very low, especially you looking for girl than can make you proud of. Don't waste your time to do things which is nearly zero percent will success, that'a not what a investor should be. Instead of thinking how to look more handsome, how to get closer to a pretty girl, I rather do nothing, but try my best to earn the maximum cash I could. The best appearance for guys is branded and confidence of a rich fellow, best talent is the earning power. Remember, you can only make choices when you got the great wealth.