Since when? I can't even know since when I lost all my confidence. I used to be a guy who are very confidence about myself, I means, "USED TO". Now? I just a guy who are failed and got no confidence left.
Recently I just being so afraid, so worry. When some female old friends talked to me, I will first thought, "are them thought I am their others friend?" Such a shame. I don't even got the guts to ask for a date with a girl even I close to her, simply just because I afraid to let her know that how poor I am.
Still remember someone told me before that I should be glad, because I can learned something very fast, my knowledge is a gift from my parents. Sounds nice, but reality is not. In reality, no one care about how smart you are, what knowledge you get. Sounds pessimistic, but this is what I learned from my life.
2011 is not a good year for me, too many bad things happened in this year. However, I did learned many in 2011, learned something that should have learn it long time ago. Now I finally understood why parents always tell us not to get a partner when we are still studying, because they knew the reality. Seriously, I really got no guts to fall in love with anyone any more, I just worry that I will waste another girl's time.
Poverty is not scary, but it does when it stand beside on something call "RICH". Confidence will only built when it got its partner call " MONEY"
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