What I want to tell you.

I was so mad just when I got the news. I thought the feeling is still there and trying to do something silly. But so fortune, that I am rational enough. I spend two days to think about the same thing, about how should I react. Finally I figured out something. I am misunderstood about myself, I don't really want her back to me at this moment. Why I mad is because I still concern about her, maybe is a perception of a very good friend. ( maybe she feel I am annoying) Do I still love her? What I can say is, I dare not to do so, not before I start working and earning. What am I sure now is, I really do care about her. I guess she will think that I am annoying her, as annoying as a fly. But I don't care, because I can't lie that I am not concern about her anymore, either as a good friend? Or a silly guy who dare not to fall in love with her? I don't even know myself. She have a new life now, new people around her, I guess she must be happy about that. I don't know what she is thinking, but if she is reading this, I wish she could allow to be her good friend, like we used to be. To share, to play, to chat. I really wanna tell her that, she is one of the very important people in my life, she really changed me a lot, motivated me. At last, I hope that she won't ignore me after reading this. I mean nothing, just want to say that I really concern her as my best friend, as my ji mui.